For four years, I’ve really held it together.
I just, I can’t, I just can’t do it anymore.
I’m supposed to be applying to high schools for my son.
And just, I can’t, I just, I miss my husband.
I have never put Henry in a school without him.
i really prided myself on being able to do it all alone and i just can’t and i’ve
had henry’s his school now has been i guess suggesting a few places for me to look
at and i look at all of them and none of them are a good fit and just the stress
anyway i’m paralyzed can’t i
Just feel like I can’t do anything.
And on top of all that, it costs a fortune.
I still haven’t gotten reimbursed for the last two years of school,
which is,
there’s just something about,
I don’t think people understand losing your spouse.
It’s even four years later.
These really pivotal moments that you need that other person.
It’s just like the grief just is unrelenting.
The missing that person.
The needing that person.
Longing for that person.
I, like, it won’t break me.
I know it won’t, but it’s on top of everything else.
It’s just a lot.
I’m not here to come on and say, oh, poor me or feel sorry for me.
It’s more of a, this is what it is, right?
This is what grief is.
This is what being a solo parent.
is this is what having to figure it all out is and having it all on your shoulders
and feeling the weight of it i will get it together fuck it’s so hard all right go
Mamdani i hope that new yorkers do the right thing (they did!)
bye
